elizabethmia
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Post by elizabethmia on May 8, 2010 18:13:46 GMT -5
This is the first time I *intentionally* fed since I've awakened. And since I have a background with drugs, I wasn't scared when I saw that first time feeding could feel like an overdose. But the first time wasn't like that. First I tried feeding off of the wind. I stood on the ground(meaning not cement) and let the wind blow into my face, I focused on my chakaras and for some reason decided that I should focus on my heart chakara. I visualized and felt the energy of both the wind and earth flow to my chest then it felt like my heart reset itself.. which was scary. I did this twice and my headache went away and I felt a bit more awake, but not "high". I started to feel the awake going away and my mom and I went to the supermarket. So I thought, maybe I should try feeding off of a stronger energy source(I wasn't trying to feel the "high" just feel normal like I did earlier). I saw their energy but not auras if that makes any sense, and I just kinda sucked in the excess. I kept on feeling like my heart would stop, then restart because I think I was taking it in through my heart chakara. A little later, I just felt awesome, talking and smiling, walking around the store and eating alot, making plans and buying clothes. It was amazing.
So what do you think? Was I really feeding? Have you heard of using the heart chakara to feed? Or feeling like your heart restarts? Can you even use the heart chakara to feed? It was a crazy feeling, a crazy experience and I don't know why I felt drained so fast.
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Post by crypticdarkness09 on May 9, 2010 7:22:19 GMT -5
well for me the more stuff I'm doing the faster I seem to lose energy and you really don't know how to conserve energy yet. it is possible to do it through your heart charkra uncommon but whatever works for you. I understand what you mean about the background with drugs and you can sort of overdose it more of taking a bunch of downers and feeling incredibly sleepy like you had taken a pain pill for a broken limb. I feed through the bottom of my feet and palms of my hands.
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Post by elizabethmia on May 9, 2010 9:08:03 GMT -5
Do you think you can psi feed and still hunger for blood(I mean like stomach pain, sick, vamping out, NEED blood)? Shouldn't just psi energy take care of it? How many times a day do you usually feed? I feel slightly, weird about it all, like not completely accepting of it yet, and I heard it was more common to use your stomach. Did you choose to feed through your feet and your palms, or was it like instinctual? And as weird as it sounds I had no idea that I had to actually make an effort to convserve it.
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Post by crypticdarkness09 on May 9, 2010 9:12:19 GMT -5
it was more of instincts and for me it's easier to feed if I'm moving around and not stationary. it depends well back when I was in school I would feed deeply in morning by warndering around the school. then again lightly feed during lunch. well for me blood was very addictiving especially it happened to be from a very energetic sang I was with at one point. but now it's more of I have take a very long walk to slowly calm down and feed.
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Post by elizabethmia on May 9, 2010 9:22:19 GMT -5
I was walking around walmart, I found it easier that way, plus I probably woulda looked like a creeper if I just sat there and stared at someone. So then it is typical to feed muliple times a day. And I've never had blood before, but after I fed off of the energy it seemed like it awakened a neeed for blood as well, which is weird, but its like, on my mind, on my brian and I just can't shake the thoughts of it, like I need it but I also want it. I need it bad enough I'm trying to fand alternatives to stave the hunger. I just feel so incredible out of control.
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Post by bomb on May 9, 2010 13:41:09 GMT -5
wanting blood is not a bad thing, no.... needing blood is normal, yes... spilled blood is good.... sometimes. For a sang-only vampire its hard, because we cant just walk around and get energy, we have to find someone, slice them open and drink from them. i haven't fed for a while so im going crazy right now. which brings up another points. If you cut a person, you get a risk of them pressing charges for assault, or having them get an infection. blood is probably the most addicting substance on the planet, hell some are addicted to it before they even try it...
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Post by elizabethmia on May 9, 2010 13:55:19 GMT -5
I know its normal, but is it possible that you can be a sang wth psychic abilities but not be a hybrid or psi? My minds been obsessing over blood, its weird, when I ever I try to bring my attention away it goes back to it.. Its quite frankly annoying, but it wouldn't be so bad if it wasn't accompanied by bad bad stomach pains and wierdo visualizations. I just don't understand, with a hybrid, isn't the need for blood less, thus the desire? And feeding off of energy is like a high for me, it does what its supposed to do for a short time, then when its gone, I feel even more depleted(not to mention it gives my mind another reason to think about the thirst).
I just feel so incredibly out of control.... like it'll just keep spinning and getting worse and worse.
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Post by crypticdarkness09 on May 9, 2010 15:00:15 GMT -5
it's possible because everyone awake or not have some sort of pyshchic abilities some tap into them some don't. well I do need blood but I have gotten things under control to the point of I don't start craving blood unless my energy has gotten so low that insticnt takes over and sangs do have it rougher. your probably still going through awakening and having some after effects. well as for the feeding you could say what I used to say and say your people watching lol stalking is frowned upon and illegal in most states. but not people watching!
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Post by elizabethmia on May 9, 2010 16:47:50 GMT -5
I know I'm still in the process of, to be honest I dread beig funny awakened(if it turns out I in fact am a sang) because I know it'll be heck to find a donor out here, our highschool only has 200 people in it! I actually love to people watch, I don't know why... so it wouldn't just be an excuse! Did you have problems identified with sang/psi when you were awakening or if you even were awakening? Btw! I was cooking beef and drank some of the blood, for some reason I could taste the meat vs the blood, and the taste is something else! It didn't realy do anything though, it just made me more hungry and for the real thing. I can only imagine how a fresh donors blood would taste... and what it would do..
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Post by crypticdarkness09 on May 9, 2010 22:09:14 GMT -5
yes for myself I was 13 when I full awakened and I didn't finally figure it out until I was 16 and had accepted it. being a vampire was absouteltly the very last thing I thought was wrong with me. I did have tough time I didn't figure out exactly what was until well a about a month before I joined this site. the key thing is I never seemed to have regular blood lust like most sangs it varied so much it varied way to much.
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Post by elizabethmia on May 10, 2010 8:33:31 GMT -5
That sounds lot like how it is for me... I've had these problems all my life and have been to a ton of doctors. I was awake to what vampires actually were and the possibliitiy but my awakening hasn't actually begun until now...
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Post by bomb on May 10, 2010 15:31:07 GMT -5
- i jined this site about 6 months after leaving my first one. the first one i awakened 1 month before joining. ive been active at this site for 1 and a half years now. leaving me awakened 2 years ago.
- i am a sanguinarian empath. I dont feed psychically but i have empathetic abilities.
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Post by elizabethmia on May 10, 2010 19:39:42 GMT -5
Do you think it would be at all possible for you to feed psychically?
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Post by bomb on May 10, 2010 23:31:44 GMT -5
i've tried it before, but with luck much not there.... that was actully quite poetic... im insane in the membrane, delving into the powers of the arcane, to deliver the final Judgement....
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Post by elizabethmia on May 11, 2010 0:22:53 GMT -5
Hmm. I see I see. And is that how the actual song goes?
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