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Post by hystic on Aug 31, 2010 15:29:03 GMT -5
Hey, well I'm new to the website and have never posted on another before. Let me start with that I've always been interested in the occult and things along those lines, that my great-grandmother and great-great grandmother were into Wicca and so am I. Not like the fake wannabe twilight stuff and masquerade, but, reality, hope people know what I mean by that. Lately,well in the past couple years things started happening slowly here and there and now within the past 6 months things have been hitting hard. Things have been getting stranger and more intense it's way to much to write in the post, but it's been a lot lately. The best way to explain the feeling is like the fog that I've been living with in is starting to lift and changes with my body, I'm 23 by the way. I decided to research awakening after accidentally typing it into Google when I was looking for something else and the front page had a few bits of what people going through awakening were experiencing and it dawned on me that it is exactly what I am going though and just could not concentrate it into thought. I had found very few real vampire sites and a lot of fake twilight and masquerade. If anyone would like to help me out with awakening and its true nature and what occurs. Thank you.
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Post by bomb on Aug 31, 2010 21:51:29 GMT -5
youll find no people masquerading around here my dear. at least the people we havent weeded out yet.
can you please list your symptoms off to me? i would be the one that could help you if anyone. btw, 23 is very late to be awakening, unless you have had a major life change recently.
any close family members die, or extreme social changes in the past year?
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Post by hystic on Sept 1, 2010 15:47:43 GMT -5
Thanks for responding. So I'll just mention what I can, because there seems to be a lot that really just blend. Like I had mentioned in the post I've always been interested in the Occult and things along those lines and there's family history of it as well. Some of the symptoms at first were just lucid dreams. Those were for the past couple years. With in the past year and half I've been trying to lose weight, not going to well until now. It seems I'm losing fat and gaining muscle quickly. Than really I would say everything else really started about 4 and a half months a go. When I developed a bad rash really burn like not like I had ever before, after having a dream of that I had been sun burned, it went away in about a month. It reacted like a bad sunburn. I had always had a sensitivity to garlic and the sun with my skin and eyes and it has gotten worse. This is with in the month or so. If I don't wear sunscreen where my skin is exposed and depending what I'm wearing wear the cloths are and no sunscreen, it starts to feel itchy and gets sort of red with white bumps like its being boiled. With my eyes I can't go outside at any time unless it's dark without sunglasses, since my eyes start to burn and water. Sometimes it even happens when I'm wearing sunglasses, or with bright light. I have recently began having sensitivity to certain foods, that I have always eaten, like certain meat and other things. I really have to watch what meat and how much other than beef. When it comes to beef I always said I like it mooing. Lately, I've been really craving beef, mainly roast beef lunch meat bloodier the better. I've been eating more beef than I use to, but I would not say more than average. Also when it comes to eating even though I am trying to loose weight, I was allowing myself a day to eat whatever, it seemed no matter what I ate and how much I just could not feel the void that was there like I'm craving something that I just can't put my finger on. My sleeping also seems different than it used to be. I mean I've always preferred the night, but now it seems no matter how little I sleep at night I'm so tired during the day, than once it becomes night again I'm wide awake and alert. When it comes to strength, it seems I have periods of weakness than more strength than I should, that it with speed too. Health wise I've always had low blood pressure, temperature and a higher pulse rate. Now sometimes it's so low, the blood pressure and temperature won't register and I don't feel any different than I should. However, I've been having what seems like flu like symptoms that come and go day to day, with muscle weakness or strength. I've been also getting weird deep pain, that comes from nowhere and goes as quickly as it came. My migraines and headaches have been becoming more often and more intense. Like I had said in the original post about the fog I seem to be living with in is lifting in several ways, like how I perceive things are different suddenly. But, I guess that might be normal in a way. When it comes to my life in general, my family(parents) and I have been having financial issues. My mother and I had lost our jobs, I am having trouble finding one and she was told by her doctor not to work for health reasons and can only get little aid that will not help much other than her medication, she filed but was denied disability and is waiting appeal. I'm not sure if I should mention this since I 'm not sure if it's related. My neice passed away in 06' and we had to put our dog to sleep a little over a year a go. So I guess that's it I tried to list everything, might of missed a few things but that's the jist.
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Post by hystic on Sept 1, 2010 17:27:57 GMT -5
I had forgotten a few things earlier. My senses are also different. Like my vision from the time I was 7 I had to wear glasses. I wore them full time till I was about 16. Than to only read or when my eyes felt tired. About the time the rash/burn happened is when I started wearing my glasses less and have not wore them for about 2 months. Recently when I had put them on and they were very strong and I could not seem with them at all. Now my vision is actually better, I mean I can see better in general espically in low light. My earing had actually diminished a bit about a month and a half ago and when it came back I can hear better than I had before. The same was with my taste and sense of smell, they went and came back way better. I have always been sensitive to the paranormal as well. Now those abilities seem to in the past few months to increase as well. As well it seems if I can seem to sense peoples emotions and their presence more. My interaction with children and animals is also different. I mean children and animals just seem to like me and want to be near me, even if they have never been around me before. I had been bitten by dogs a few times in my life, however, one time was my cousin and dad had him worked up and he turned to fight back at them and it happened to be me, the dog actually seemed sympathetic and was licking at my wound and nugging at me. Another time was our dog, that we had just gotten didn't like his collar pulled I did not know this and he was about to run out the door and I grabed it. The other time is when our 2 dogs were playing and I happened to be in the middle so it was a play bite really, all times the dogs like I said before were actually sympathetic. Now it is not much different except for few things. About a month a go my cousions dog well the best way to put it is that he just freaked out at me. While others just seem to listen to me and no one else. With our cats they seem to be the same just listen to me and are more attached lets say. Now with kids they just always came to me, now when they are crying and they see me they stop, or when they are running aroud at the store and they are running from their parents they stop by me, one even took my hand. I have always been on the shy side when it comes to new people, about 6 months or so ago I just seemed more confident and outgoing. Recently however, I have seemed to become more introverted than I have been. I do not want to go around people but I feel like I must for some reason. I'm seem to be nervous, energized and over come all at once in a large crowd now. So that's it, I think. If I remember anything else I'll post again.
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Post by bomb on Sept 1, 2010 20:41:05 GMT -5
well well, you werent kidding when you said you had a lot to share. i will respond in a bit with my opinion on the matter. i must attend to other matters and develop a thoguht on this.
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Post by bomb on Sept 1, 2010 20:59:51 GMT -5
ok i have thought on this.. and have concluded. from what im seeing/and or hearing, it would seem you have already passed your awakening period and are now a sanguinarian vampire. it is up to you wether you wish to... develop your mental capacity. in this way you could learn to better use psychic abiities to obtain energy. you came around about a year too late my dear. any questions you have would also be answered here. this place is a Haven for the awakened and the awakening. also a place were mentors may teach others less informed than themself. another conclusion i have derived form the information youve given me, is that you have been awakening since the ripe age of 16. for 7 years you would be classified as unintentional, unknowingly psychicly draining the people around you, because your mind did not know of proper ways to feed and get energy, your body reacted in a way that is naturally occuring. the downside is that many people might have been psychically damaged around you. especially animals, since they are much smaller than us, they have much smaller energy cores. extended draining of an animal has the potential for death. especially when fed upon the sick or elderly. i figure youve been awakened for 6 months now. probably an...."unseen" force nudged you to find answers to this. if possible, you might see a psychic who specializes in death sight, or one who can see spirits. they might be able to discern if you are recieving "heavenly" guidance. trust me, i would know.
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Post by hystic on Sept 2, 2010 14:30:13 GMT -5
Thank you for responding to me so quickly, I know there was a lot. You were very helpful and I will look into psychics, as well as do further research. Thank you once again.
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Post by bomb on Sept 3, 2010 0:18:19 GMT -5
it was my pleasure. i do believe you are the first one who has seeked me out AFTER they have awakened...
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