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Post by katelyn on Dec 6, 2010 1:17:08 GMT -5
firstly i would like to say i'm not some stary eyed preteen attracted to the allure and sexiness of the vampire fanfiction or some lonely chick hoping to fit into the vamp minority. i am having real problems. after a string of sudden and odd changes followed by endless visits to doctors and specialists i'm totally healthy-physically and mentally--in my quest for answers on what could be causing this pain several people pointed me in this website's direction-so here i am!!! retracing facts and events it seems that i am either awakening still or have been awakened for a few months--the only debate and unsolved question is----what kind of vampire am i? ?? we can't figure this one out...
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Post by bomb on Dec 6, 2010 7:52:14 GMT -5
wow, pointed here? im glad were earning such a reputation... anyways, welcome. now to get started i would like you to list off your general symptoms and whats been happening.
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Post by katelyn on Dec 6, 2010 12:03:47 GMT -5
extreme fatigue, painful headaches, nightmares, stomach aches from hell, complete loss of food and sex appitite, thirst that never ends, my generally positive disposition has gone southward, i've never been able to be in the sun but now i get skin irritations in 3 minutes flat (good thing i'm in night school XP) my glasses are seemingly useless during the night time hours even though i'm practically blind in the light, i can smell things more clearly now--and i don't like most, i have a deep throbbing annoying desire for something and i don't know wtf, ppl report that they love me but can't be around me because i tire them----and MOST all of these symptoms go away in a stranger (or my bff carmen's) presence
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Post by katelyn on Dec 6, 2010 12:09:04 GMT -5
BTW---I'm sorry if i seem snippy--I've just been looked at funny and laughed at by so many doctors and even other vamp sites--it's kinda put me in a pessimistic mood---that's not your fault---i apologize
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Post by darkblackriver on Dec 7, 2010 7:37:47 GMT -5
o.O seriously? that last symptom's been annoying me too.. the whole "mostly-happens-when-am-alone-never-around-my-bf-or-bff" thing.... that's really annoying cause it makes you think...*sigh*...the loneliness is getting to you or u *need* to have people constantly around you...or something : | bomb and author of this post: hope you dnt mind me butting in : P
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Post by bomb on Dec 7, 2010 8:00:13 GMT -5
its fine, group discussions are wonderful.
it sounds like the early stages of awakening, before anything really sets in. of course i cant ever say for sure without going face to face, and even then its not 100%, but it could be.
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Post by katelyn on Dec 7, 2010 12:16:37 GMT -5
i know that my house is a toxic enviroment-the energy here is awful--it will probably improve my mood when i leave here huh? i can't have a bf strange otherconversationalist so consider yourself lucky--while i yearn for a lover's companionship we always fight because i drain them to an aggressive state then i get bored or something and the relationship just ends. my bff loves me but we rarely hang for more than a day once every 2 weeks or so--she's the one who directed me in the possible 'vamiric' direction--she said---feed on someone already so we can hang!!! lol
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Post by darkblackriver on Dec 7, 2010 13:59:58 GMT -5
same here : P no really, i 'drain people to an aggressive state' and we fight and they leave me. infact its this way with everybody. one thing's for sure, i manage to 'irritate' normally very calm, patient people and bring out their worst... consider ureself lucky you have a bff! my home environment's toxic too..stifling, depressing even.. which is why i butted in here, im a lil concerned over that part. is that what we naturally are? the types who can't really be with/get along with people?! : s (i hope adam's reading this)
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Post by katelyn on Dec 8, 2010 0:02:39 GMT -5
i think we'll be fine chika i've been practicing controlling my energy for only a week now and things have improved-it'll be even better when i have a reliable donor instead of stupid group draws and it will be better for you too i'm sure <3
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Post by crypticdarkness09 on Dec 8, 2010 11:04:08 GMT -5
it's a real drag not having a reliable donor it's being hard to find one who doesn't think your some vampire crazed fan girl. but try going in public places and trying what I call sipping from various people. it looks like I'm people watching but I'm really feeding. try draining from plants or nature if your really desperate. (that would explain why I can't seem to keep any plants alive, lol) also River it's hard to find some people who understand that you tick off or scare I go through the same thing. I believe it's naturally how we are but in some cases it's different.
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Post by bomb on Dec 8, 2010 18:36:27 GMT -5
this is a good discussion.
i think when we awaken, we see things differen tly, the world doesnt neccesarily change, just our udnerstanding of it. we see what people are really like, how their life is lead, how they treat others. we become more self consious of our actions, and begin to feel different. things are still the same, but youve changed, making things seem like its just a deep dark hole that we cant climb out of. my house is very gloomy it seems, but really, it hasnt changed 1 bit. just me.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 24, 2010 2:08:05 GMT -5
OMG Awakenings suckkk! LOL I think the worst part is for a whole month I was thirsty. Nothing could quench my thirst. IT SUCKED=P Idk if any others have experienced that.
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Post by bomb on Dec 24, 2010 17:57:11 GMT -5
ya that is common... the first few months of awakening are the worst. from what ive experienced, the less blood you consume over time, the less you experience cravings, but when you do, they become ver strong. which is what im experiencing, since i used mostly psychic energy means during my awakening periods. now im without a stable source and its really hitting me hard
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