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Post by chitipati89 on Jun 25, 2012 9:44:52 GMT -5
a few things have been happening for the last year that have made me question whats goin on with my body. ive been to at least 3 different doctors and they havent had much to say or given me much help at all. ive had a bad sensitivity to light, sometimes so bad i cant drive and i have to pull over. im constantly tired and hungry, but when i eat i just feel slightly sick and unsatisfied, like im always eating the wrong thing. ive changed my diet but still nothing. ive been having extremely vivid dreams always containgin people i know, but may not have seen in years. ive spiralled into a depression and sometimes snap for no reason, or a reason that isnt at all valid (not that any really is). i also have withdrawn from everyone with the exception of my best friend and pretty much wander around all day trying to find something to do which i never seem to be able to do but then as soon as everyone in the house is asleep its like i get a second wind, im lively im awake and i seem to have unlimited things i can do, or want to do and usually end up doin like late night walks, reading, cleaning and just generall stuff i cant seem to think of during the day. if i am awakening how can i tell for sure? and how can you tell the difference between being a sang and psi. any help would be greatly appreciated, like i said in the beggining ive been to several doctors. one had me take 7 different blood tests, chest xrays and eye tests. all blood tests came back negative, my chest xrays were fine and my eye test came back clear with no issues but the optomotrist said i still need glasses even tho i have perfect 20/20 vision. id really like someone to help me work out whats goin on and if this is the answer. thank you
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Post by iMikeMonster on Jun 25, 2012 17:31:08 GMT -5
Chi, your reactions/symptoms are natural and something a lot of us deal with during the awakening process. I came to terms with being an awakening vampire, but rejected any notion that we're in any way linked to the folklore of vampires and myths. It wasn't until I began having a lot of the same symptoms that I really had to research, talk to others and mediate to understand what was happening. My human body, was of Latino decent, I never burned and had a longing to be in the sun constantly. Once the awakening got into full swing, the sun and light started to bother my eyes. I figured this was just a mental complex or subconscious connection to folklore, but then I had an experience that changed me forever. I went to a party, something I'd done my whole life. I didn't think anything of it because I had sunglasses on and had never had a problem with the sun, I tanned very easily. I was in the sun for about an hour and felt fine. It wasn't until later, my skin felt like it was one fire, like a sunburn, but something was way worse. My skin eventually became like leather from head to toe and I was admitted to the hospital for days. They couldn't explain how I'd never gotten a sunburn in my life then after such a short time, i was burnt literally to ash. It's taken me a long time to recover and am still very weak from it. So, embrace this, don't shy away from what your body is trying to teach you. Your body and its reactions are the best tool in learning how to coop and live within this culture. Diet is something of choice. Depending on your age, I don't recommend drinking blood for psychological reasons. Try a rare steak or simply a thick, vegetable mix with electrolytes. This will enter the nutrients directly into your body and allow you to gain quicker energy. the depression is something I struggled with for a VERY long time. I think once you learn what is happening and how to deal with everything, you'll find the depression to be MUCH easier to manage. I did.
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Post by robin on Jun 26, 2012 3:19:53 GMT -5
Almost everything you've explained is a T to my symptoms. (I have metaphysical smptoms as well)
My name is Robin. Pleased to meet you. I am new to all this. I always was considered a goth because of my interest and style , but I am just simple o' me. I am not into social networks or any kind of communicating online for that matter. But here I am speaking to you on this site. I am a college student trying to be a school teacher who recently experienced strange occurrences/dreams regarding a photosensitive professor and that's when all my symptoms began. Before I list them I have always seem to have a sixth sense and many unexplained things have been happening most of my life, honest. That's a whole another story.
I will list them all and you tell me if you experience the same:
-I am extremely photosensitive. Any direct UV light causing nausea, fatigue, aches, headaches or a complete collapse to the point of sleep. (THIS IS THE MOST HINDERING) -Hearing my families thoughts, - having a high sense of smell and sight in the dark. -unusual sleep patterns -Emotional --Tingling in feet and hands when recuperating in the dark from sun exposure. - My family tells me I drain their energy when I sit next to them or hug them. -No appetite, getting full fast. -Only craving certain foods. ( meats or greens) -Certain foods make me sick or give me heartburn. -I have quit cold drinks and only drink hot ones (coffee, tea and water) -My hair has turn red it was dark brown. -My skin has gotten paler and vieny. -Pain in jaw and gums. -Feeling energetic and normal when it becomes night. I even have regular appetite. -weight loss -Astral projection (Many episodes right before these symptoms arose) -Touch or near electronics, they will malfunction.(you may have problems with your computer when reading this, I assure you! *not joking) - I even have caused blight in a few plants/herbs in my Father's garden after touching them. - An abundant amount of Animals seem to hover and hang out near me and my families house (opossums, rats, cats, dogs, owls,bats, butterflies, moths, spiders, moths, flies, bees ect.
This is the most odd...this is what makes me think my Awakening is truly real! In may, I had a dream with the professor I mentioned earlier who told me I was like him and I was going through the awakening (vampiric one; Sang not Psy) (probably my beacon)
OK the shocker...........I never heard of this word before and I have always had an interest in Vampires but only to the extent that Hollywood would take it not of the "Real" Vampirism community.
Sorry for all the reading. Hope my "novel" here has shed some light. No pun intended. Thank you.
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Post by chitipati89 on Jun 28, 2012 23:07:58 GMT -5
thank a lot guys for the responses, and its great to meet you both. there was heaps of information that was really useful to me. i have noticed that the more i focus on whats happening to my body the more the symtoms seem to get stronger. i think the last thing i need to do is just sort of get over the original shock of whats happening and like you said mike monster just embracing the natural change and accepting what i am. i only wish there was more people in the community that lived closer to myself. meditation is something ive always tried to get into but i just find it difficult sometimes. could you suggest any simple methods to start a meditation routine, theres millions of pages on the internet about the topic, most of which say different things. thank you both again for you help, i really appreciate it
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Post by bomb18 on Jul 5, 2012 1:20:46 GMT -5
i find that prolonged periods of being outside in bright sunlight really take it out of me, i usually just go inside and sleep it off. by the way, just because you have these symptoms does'nt mean you are a vampire. it is almost a spiritual decision, you will eventually just know if you are one or not.
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Post by bloodlust2119 on Dec 4, 2013 17:36:16 GMT -5
Hi. im 16, turning 17 in march. and its kinda hard to explain what ive been going through for the past 10 years or so but here it goes.... my eyes change color depending on mood, and time of day. My 2 top fang teeth r sharp and only one on the bottom. im not sensitive to light but i prefer dark. im usually tired all day and awake at night. i love walkig around ar night. I love climbing and i love the woods. im pretty fast. ive loved the taste and even the thought of blood since i can remember. When i get really mad to were im gonna fight, i have a lowish growl and i show my teeth, idk why exactly but it just feels right. And earlier today, randomly i remembered something from my childhood. idk if its a dream or not but i woke up and there was a tall shadow, in the shape of a man standing at the foot of my bed, i knew i didnt know em, i forget if he said anything or not but shortly after seeing him, i passed out..... Ik all this sounds really weird but i kinda wanna know what i am if anything......
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