Post by necroiza on Jul 8, 2012 2:12:36 GMT -5
I am 14 years old, my name is Josh. I have an IQ of 134. But that was not how it all started out when I was born. From 1st grade-5th grade, I was one of the worst students in my classes. Ever since the second half of 5th grade my entire life changed. Ever since that time, my intellect just shot up naturally. I yearned for more knowledge, and now it has become energy. I sometimes am able to see auras from people. I feel empty, lonely, depressed, and hopelessness which started all of a sudden just a few months ago. I was constantly ill in the beginning of this year. However, the 3rd time I was ill, I faced a very bad and painful experience of a headache. It felt like someone smashed a hammer into my head, or it felt like a bullet was shot into my head and I was still alive, living with it in there. I am larger in size, weight more, and am stronger than most of my peers. I am nearly 6 feet, and I am 167 pounds. Though I feel depressed and stressed out, I have not had pressure in school or anything, and no tragedy has ever occurred..at least that I know about. I like to stare a lot, especially at people. I feel like I can sense an energy coming from them that I want. Sometimes I am right when I predict that will happen in the future, only with small situations though, like the weather and such. I have only begun to prefer cloudy days instead of sunny days. I am liking dullness with slight glints of happiness than everyday happiness. Many adults have been telling me I am more mature, knowledgeable, and understanding than most of my peers. Sometimes I feel strange pains inside of my bones or muscles. The doctor has told me that I have a strange body, but is an advantage to me. I have an above-average health which has given me larger bone mass. I am not overweight. Many of my friends seem to break their legs, arms, and ribs too easily. But when I break my fall with my arms, I just get a bruise, which just goes away by itself. My scrapes last only 2-4 days. I have gotten over colds in just 2-3 days.
I have also had an increased ability with my senses. Sometimes when I look at someone a split second before they do, they just look back at me, but it seems like I was expecting that. It only happens naturally. If I try to do it consciously, they don't seem to respond. I have gotten nauseous easily for no apparent reason. I have also been having mood swings, and quick tempers. Sometimes I get extremely mad over such small things, such as a small interruption or such. It pains me to see my family members hurt by my actions and new nature. I don't know if this is an awakening, or all just a coincidence. However, I do theorize that I am a Psi-vampire, since many of my symptoms are relevant and similar to the ones that are stated for Psi-vampires. I just want more energy. I feel more tired during the day even though I sleep at night. I can see in the dark, and it used to bother me, but now it doesn't. My vision seemed to healed by itself after that massive headache. I went from 40/50 vision to 20/20, my optometrist told me. I can stand blood, but I do not prefer it. As I said, I like to stare, and when I see those people, I feel the aura and kind of energy that I just want to consume. I don't know how to do it though, and I don't know if I'm already doing it or now. I literally feel alone though my family all surrounds me. I have this sort of emptiness, and I really want to fill it up with energy. I might be lacking energy. Nowadays, when I get in the car and the Sun decides to shine on my side of the car, I feel like I need to sleep.
I have so many more questions. Any further details and explanations would be greatly appreciated.
I have also had an increased ability with my senses. Sometimes when I look at someone a split second before they do, they just look back at me, but it seems like I was expecting that. It only happens naturally. If I try to do it consciously, they don't seem to respond. I have gotten nauseous easily for no apparent reason. I have also been having mood swings, and quick tempers. Sometimes I get extremely mad over such small things, such as a small interruption or such. It pains me to see my family members hurt by my actions and new nature. I don't know if this is an awakening, or all just a coincidence. However, I do theorize that I am a Psi-vampire, since many of my symptoms are relevant and similar to the ones that are stated for Psi-vampires. I just want more energy. I feel more tired during the day even though I sleep at night. I can see in the dark, and it used to bother me, but now it doesn't. My vision seemed to healed by itself after that massive headache. I went from 40/50 vision to 20/20, my optometrist told me. I can stand blood, but I do not prefer it. As I said, I like to stare, and when I see those people, I feel the aura and kind of energy that I just want to consume. I don't know how to do it though, and I don't know if I'm already doing it or now. I literally feel alone though my family all surrounds me. I have this sort of emptiness, and I really want to fill it up with energy. I might be lacking energy. Nowadays, when I get in the car and the Sun decides to shine on my side of the car, I feel like I need to sleep.
I have so many more questions. Any further details and explanations would be greatly appreciated.