Post by anubis on Sept 24, 2012 3:53:36 GMT -5
Sorry for my bad writing, spelling or grammar. I'm a South KOrean. ¤Ð¤Ð
I don't know who I am yet.
I was withdrawn with other people since I was 11. I couldn't understand them, and they couldn't get along with me.(though I have good relationships now)
I'm 17 now. I just knew that vampyre community or site really exists yesterday
and I liked vampyres when I was 13. I think that was not just being fascinated. I found ways to be me, I think.
then I started do the occult, I think I liked it, especially interchanging with spirits. (And I had wierd experiences...)
and I became christian. other family members followed me that.
After that, I figured out I'm DIFFERENT from any normal people.
I still don't know what kind of difference that is.
There are some things I found in my body which slightly differs from others:
1) my friends were surprised at my strength, but I think that is pretty normal.
2) I have muscle aches a lot but I think that might be from the consequences from exercising a lot
3) I feel extremely tired during the day hours( but not in gym class in assemby hall), but I never sleep during the class. I'm just tired, not sleepy.
and the really abnormal thing here:
4) I can't control myself sometimes. when I was in America, my roommate found me keep scratching the floor(furred), and me asking Homestaying mother to hit me to relax the overly tensioned muscle. After that I took an immediate shower.
I had this symptoms rarely
5) I have to go out every night to walk and run. for an hour minimum. Sometimes 3 hours like that. the funny thing is, I craves to go out side every night (9pm to 12pm)
this is the thing I can't control muscles tension.
6) when I was 13, I craved for blood and finally couldn't stand it. had a BIG INSANE THING at that age.
7) My perents started to feed me Ferumn capsules.
8) my friend loves horror stories. when she or my teachers talk about the criminals, I starts to lose my mind and think about the blood. this started since age 16 when I completely forgot about vampyres.
I have this until now.
after stopping having advices from spirit nowadays, I wanted to have bloods again. I hadn't had capsules before I had radiotic iodine therapy to cure hyperthreosis.
well I'm an Asian, so I don't have a sensitive skins.
this is 5:23 in Korea. Sun is going down and my heart started to beat faster.
well before entering this site I thought I was insane. I was kind of borne to animal instincts.
Nowadays I have 3 ferrumn capsules a day(54mg), which means I have ferumn in my body 3times more than normal people(18mg)
it's funny, becuase I used to have only one.
I started to sleep at 6 am (I dont' know if this thing is from the theraphy) and this is a hell. My mom doesn't allow me to go out of course. She doesn't allow me to take sleeping pills because I might be addicted to it! I didn't go to school today(this is monday in Korea) because I couldn't wake up. (slept at 6, woke up at 2 30 pm)
(by the way, I sleep normally at 1am and wake up at 7. Bet every Koreans do that. I'm not a nightowl, never been)
AND MY MOM STILL DON"T ALLOW ME TO HAVE RARE MEAT! WHILE SHE UNDERSTANDS I'M CRAVING FOR BLOOD!
this symptoms are wierd for vampyres.
I don't know who I am yet.
I was withdrawn with other people since I was 11. I couldn't understand them, and they couldn't get along with me.(though I have good relationships now)
I'm 17 now. I just knew that vampyre community or site really exists yesterday
and I liked vampyres when I was 13. I think that was not just being fascinated. I found ways to be me, I think.
then I started do the occult, I think I liked it, especially interchanging with spirits. (And I had wierd experiences...)
and I became christian. other family members followed me that.
After that, I figured out I'm DIFFERENT from any normal people.
I still don't know what kind of difference that is.
There are some things I found in my body which slightly differs from others:
1) my friends were surprised at my strength, but I think that is pretty normal.
2) I have muscle aches a lot but I think that might be from the consequences from exercising a lot
3) I feel extremely tired during the day hours( but not in gym class in assemby hall), but I never sleep during the class. I'm just tired, not sleepy.
and the really abnormal thing here:
4) I can't control myself sometimes. when I was in America, my roommate found me keep scratching the floor(furred), and me asking Homestaying mother to hit me to relax the overly tensioned muscle. After that I took an immediate shower.
I had this symptoms rarely
5) I have to go out every night to walk and run. for an hour minimum. Sometimes 3 hours like that. the funny thing is, I craves to go out side every night (9pm to 12pm)
this is the thing I can't control muscles tension.
6) when I was 13, I craved for blood and finally couldn't stand it. had a BIG INSANE THING at that age.
7) My perents started to feed me Ferumn capsules.
8) my friend loves horror stories. when she or my teachers talk about the criminals, I starts to lose my mind and think about the blood. this started since age 16 when I completely forgot about vampyres.
I have this until now.
after stopping having advices from spirit nowadays, I wanted to have bloods again. I hadn't had capsules before I had radiotic iodine therapy to cure hyperthreosis.
well I'm an Asian, so I don't have a sensitive skins.
this is 5:23 in Korea. Sun is going down and my heart started to beat faster.
well before entering this site I thought I was insane. I was kind of borne to animal instincts.
Nowadays I have 3 ferrumn capsules a day(54mg), which means I have ferumn in my body 3times more than normal people(18mg)
it's funny, becuase I used to have only one.
I started to sleep at 6 am (I dont' know if this thing is from the theraphy) and this is a hell. My mom doesn't allow me to go out of course. She doesn't allow me to take sleeping pills because I might be addicted to it! I didn't go to school today(this is monday in Korea) because I couldn't wake up. (slept at 6, woke up at 2 30 pm)
(by the way, I sleep normally at 1am and wake up at 7. Bet every Koreans do that. I'm not a nightowl, never been)
AND MY MOM STILL DON"T ALLOW ME TO HAVE RARE MEAT! WHILE SHE UNDERSTANDS I'M CRAVING FOR BLOOD!
this symptoms are wierd for vampyres.