Post by craycray77 on Nov 2, 2012 19:57:45 GMT -5
OK, so I know this is something about myself that I can't find out online but I've just been really confused these past few weeks trying to figure things out on my own and I could really use some help. I've been doing the research for a few weeks now...It's almost like I'm obsessed with finding as much info as I can and I've always liked vampires but I've never actually thought they could "exist" until now...and I find so many similarities it kind of scares me.
Ok for example, my eyes have become incredibly sensitive to light. Outside I am always wearing sunglasses, even when it is cloudy and if I don't I'll get a headache also florescent light has started to give me headaches. I'm always thirsty and nothing quenches it. And I'm constantly eating because I can never find anything that satisfies my hunger (or craving I guess? I don't even know)I have also began to crave blood...which really terrifies me...I see it and I just want to taste it. I can almost see it pulsing through people and I feel an overwhelming urge to bite and get it. This makes me feel like I'm crazy! how do i handle it?
My sleep pattern has changed also...now I'm tired during the day and no matter how much sleep i got the night before I can't go to sleep before 3-4 am.
I used to be extremely social...honestly I would always be out with people every night, and now I prefer to be alone. But its weird, when I'm alone I get very depressed and down and very irritable and when I'm around people I get really hyper and happy (especially in crowds) and full of energy but it seems like now I can only handle so much before I have to get away.People get really moody and irritable around me.
I feel very empty like there is something missing and I can't fit in anymore. (I've been to see psychologists and they cant figure me out.)
I feel very tired a lot...but not sleepy just tired. My senses seem to be hightend now...I can hear and smell everything things feel and taste different. I get random body aches that have nothing to do with sickness. I've been to doctors and they can't figure it out..they blame it on hormones.. also I'm 18. (just throwing that in there in case it has relevance) There is more I could talk about but I dont want anyone to have to read a novel. I'm just really confused and I feel crazy but somehow it also feels right? Could it be possible I'm awakening/awakened? Any feedback would be great.
Ok for example, my eyes have become incredibly sensitive to light. Outside I am always wearing sunglasses, even when it is cloudy and if I don't I'll get a headache also florescent light has started to give me headaches. I'm always thirsty and nothing quenches it. And I'm constantly eating because I can never find anything that satisfies my hunger (or craving I guess? I don't even know)I have also began to crave blood...which really terrifies me...I see it and I just want to taste it. I can almost see it pulsing through people and I feel an overwhelming urge to bite and get it. This makes me feel like I'm crazy! how do i handle it?
My sleep pattern has changed also...now I'm tired during the day and no matter how much sleep i got the night before I can't go to sleep before 3-4 am.
I used to be extremely social...honestly I would always be out with people every night, and now I prefer to be alone. But its weird, when I'm alone I get very depressed and down and very irritable and when I'm around people I get really hyper and happy (especially in crowds) and full of energy but it seems like now I can only handle so much before I have to get away.People get really moody and irritable around me.
I feel very empty like there is something missing and I can't fit in anymore. (I've been to see psychologists and they cant figure me out.)
I feel very tired a lot...but not sleepy just tired. My senses seem to be hightend now...I can hear and smell everything things feel and taste different. I get random body aches that have nothing to do with sickness. I've been to doctors and they can't figure it out..they blame it on hormones.. also I'm 18. (just throwing that in there in case it has relevance) There is more I could talk about but I dont want anyone to have to read a novel. I'm just really confused and I feel crazy but somehow it also feels right? Could it be possible I'm awakening/awakened? Any feedback would be great.