Post by Joseph on Jan 23, 2013 9:11:57 GMT -5
OK well in June 2012 around the end of my school year i had such a strong crave for raw meats i was fighting the crave endlessly mostly due to well if the only raw meat your folks buy most of the time is chop meat would you even take the risk of eating the insides bloody besides of that, around my 16th birthday in Sept it felt like i was losing my mind crave growing non stop. then around Oct lost my school in English class over a book i all ready hated a mix of that hate and the random hate and anger i had that day tossed it across the class room hitting this one guys rib cage with a soft cover book sounded like his ribs cracked well besides that the teacher aid ask me to leave the class room i said no then after he tryed to remove me by force it trigger a fight or flight react well what went on was i punch him in the rib cage and it ended up with 2 teachers trying to pin me down then after it ended up with 3 trying they all failed took 4 teachers to even pin me down to the ground heck after they did one of them started randomly bleeding in-front of my face you got any idea how strong my crave for blood was that day & yes i was able to fight the crave even with the smell being so strong what i notice in June was i was able to smell blood a lot more from a far my sister got a cut and i smelled the blood from the other room that's the only sense i got that really change well my hearing did get a hair better then what it was my eye sight is still at 40-47 my eye sight in the dark so well i can cook in the dark and know what I'm doing. well the case in Nov was i started eating some sea salt a bit more and a bit after lost the crave for blood well i lose the crave to I'm near a person I'm thinking the high miniorls in sea salt are a bit like the ones found in blood only differnts no blood cells.
dec up to now i felt fine well i ended up getting the flu a few days ago normally i don't get sick for more then 24 hours or don't get sick at all, if i get hurt normally I'm back on my feet in no time. i get bored in gym class when climbing the rock wall so i jump off it at the 10ft mark, heck a teacher wanted me to pry open a lock in her class room that someone stole the keys for well i did not try i let everyone else try no one was able to i went up to it used one hand + i was mad at what went on at lunch and that anger was good to get off my back by busting a lock. OK after i riped it open with one hand i ended up losing my thumb to bend the lock back into working order this one girl I'm thinking she is starting to think how i am so strong i tell her all it was just a little anger i got from a event that went on at lunch sometimes and nothing more. i rare crave anything to eat heck i mostly don't crave a bite of food to eat all day long i mostly only eat when ever my mom gets worried about me not eating so i eat the food just so she is not worried about me. i started to try and eat the needed food groups to see if that gives me any energy been a month since i started trying i still feel the same type of energy drain as i did then. i have seen i gotten energy burst when I'm near a large group of people. if it was not for my flu i think i be sleeping right now. my sleep habit is mostly i pass out at 6am wake up at early dusk i really have not been thinking of it to much to lately. my blood crave of lately seems some what gone but i have got the crave in the past it goes away then a few months later it returns more strong then ever. sometimes feels like I'm just killing my self by fighting the crave even posting this here i feel like i lost my mind. BTW what does this mean my dad has this friend when ever he looks at me he looks into my eyes oddly unlike any person i ever seen be for look at my eyes. i am able to see aura sometimes just not all the time if i do even try to see aura when near a large group of people i just feel sick for a few days. any ideas whats wrong with me will be helpful. if you thinking I'm some type of twilight fan think again i never watch or raid any of their work and i have all ways been more of a werewolf fan. i use to dislike the idea of how vampires have to feed on blood or energy now its like at all the myths in the past sometimes do turn out to be true just small in numbers. china go back far into their past you find panda to be myth today they are not makes me wonder how many more beings are like that. with my luck this is all in my head it feels like it to me yet I'm all ways fighting what my body tellls me. heck only of lately i stoped fighting what my body wants if i want to let some steam out i go punch a wall don't hurt me much. 3 days ago when i got the flu my mom made me some tea and get this the tea spilled all over my hand within 3 hours my hand did not feel burnt it felt back to how it was and it has no burnt marks from boiling hot water. my body all ways seems to heal faster depending on how major i get hurt. well in Sept my dad made me a burger thing is some how it still had a bloody center & it was by far the best burger i ever have not to raw and cooked just right. my dads side does have this one odd k9 trait well in some of the genaions on my dads side there is a odd fang that sticks out a bit more then the other 4 it stays on a bit of the outer part of the jaw i know that has nothing to do with real vampires and all i just find it odd how i got a k9 tooth like that and razor sharp heck if i wanted to i can use any one of my k9 teeth to bite a hole in my tongue
dec up to now i felt fine well i ended up getting the flu a few days ago normally i don't get sick for more then 24 hours or don't get sick at all, if i get hurt normally I'm back on my feet in no time. i get bored in gym class when climbing the rock wall so i jump off it at the 10ft mark, heck a teacher wanted me to pry open a lock in her class room that someone stole the keys for well i did not try i let everyone else try no one was able to i went up to it used one hand + i was mad at what went on at lunch and that anger was good to get off my back by busting a lock. OK after i riped it open with one hand i ended up losing my thumb to bend the lock back into working order this one girl I'm thinking she is starting to think how i am so strong i tell her all it was just a little anger i got from a event that went on at lunch sometimes and nothing more. i rare crave anything to eat heck i mostly don't crave a bite of food to eat all day long i mostly only eat when ever my mom gets worried about me not eating so i eat the food just so she is not worried about me. i started to try and eat the needed food groups to see if that gives me any energy been a month since i started trying i still feel the same type of energy drain as i did then. i have seen i gotten energy burst when I'm near a large group of people. if it was not for my flu i think i be sleeping right now. my sleep habit is mostly i pass out at 6am wake up at early dusk i really have not been thinking of it to much to lately. my blood crave of lately seems some what gone but i have got the crave in the past it goes away then a few months later it returns more strong then ever. sometimes feels like I'm just killing my self by fighting the crave even posting this here i feel like i lost my mind. BTW what does this mean my dad has this friend when ever he looks at me he looks into my eyes oddly unlike any person i ever seen be for look at my eyes. i am able to see aura sometimes just not all the time if i do even try to see aura when near a large group of people i just feel sick for a few days. any ideas whats wrong with me will be helpful. if you thinking I'm some type of twilight fan think again i never watch or raid any of their work and i have all ways been more of a werewolf fan. i use to dislike the idea of how vampires have to feed on blood or energy now its like at all the myths in the past sometimes do turn out to be true just small in numbers. china go back far into their past you find panda to be myth today they are not makes me wonder how many more beings are like that. with my luck this is all in my head it feels like it to me yet I'm all ways fighting what my body tellls me. heck only of lately i stoped fighting what my body wants if i want to let some steam out i go punch a wall don't hurt me much. 3 days ago when i got the flu my mom made me some tea and get this the tea spilled all over my hand within 3 hours my hand did not feel burnt it felt back to how it was and it has no burnt marks from boiling hot water. my body all ways seems to heal faster depending on how major i get hurt. well in Sept my dad made me a burger thing is some how it still had a bloody center & it was by far the best burger i ever have not to raw and cooked just right. my dads side does have this one odd k9 trait well in some of the genaions on my dads side there is a odd fang that sticks out a bit more then the other 4 it stays on a bit of the outer part of the jaw i know that has nothing to do with real vampires and all i just find it odd how i got a k9 tooth like that and razor sharp heck if i wanted to i can use any one of my k9 teeth to bite a hole in my tongue