Post by immortalcravings on Feb 22, 2014 23:42:42 GMT -5
Before I begin I must say that I am 13 years of age. I have been interested in vampyres for as long as I can remember and I never really thought anything of it. I mean most teen girls love vampyres! If I can recall correctly, when I dated my girl friend (I'm bi) a lot of changes happened. I never really took notice of it till now cuz it was never really pointed out to me before. I see a counciler, and take meds for my anxiety/depression, and it helps. It just still feels like something is....missing i guess you could say. Today I decided to get on google and I looked up 'Why do I feel like something is wrong?' To my surprise a website about vampyres was listed, so ofcourse I clicked it, and I began reading. I learned that you can not be 'changed' into a vampyre. It is more like a virus and when you reach a certain age (diffrent for everybody) you have your awakening...I had never heard of this before so I kept reading and it listed 'symptoms' of the beginnning of your awkening and it all made so much sense! It also said that an awkening can be 'boosted' or happen earlier if you were ever around another vampyre, especially if you were in a close relationship with one. Since me and her always wore fangs I immedeatley thought of you....and so I asked her about it and she said she was indeed a vampyre. It says that even once your awakening has started in can take anywhere from days to years (i think it said 3 at most) to really notice. I had all but 2 of the symptoms (1. becuz im tan not bleach white 2. becuz i am a natural blonde) not only that but I have very interested in blood lately, for example, I have been sick latley (which it did say in there that if you do not have blood you are drained) so I have been getting my blood drawn. I hav an urge to just watch as my blood flows into the syringe. It is almost a turn on for me now, I mean just sitting here thinking about it's color and how it flows and the warmth of it....blood is like....amazing to me now!! Also a little bit ago (like 30mins) I cut my finger and I decided to taste the blood (yea yea ik ik im gross) and I had the greatest feeling ever. It was only a little cut so I could only get about a drop of blood so I began to panic and started shaking (i still am) and I can't stop thinking about blood now. after I began shaking I got on google and looked up about vampyres drinking their own blood, and apparently it is a very bad idea becuz it will put you in 'vamp mode' (it said like shaking and twitching) but if you drink your own blood or another vampyre's blood it will drain you. So now I'm tired, shaking and so confused! Is this the beginning of my awakening?