Post by katyadidgroove on Dec 31, 2017 23:39:31 GMT -5
When i was very young, 13 young, i was already involved in the gothic and vampire communities, back then i knew it where i belonged, and although i dont show it outwardly as much anymore it still may be. At that time id already developed strong telepathy and began to have clairvoyant episodes. I never asked whether i was a vampire then, there wasn't any support for it back then and clairvoyance ran in my family. Ive always had a host of physical health issues on top of anxiety disorder and extremely mild aspergers. By the time i was 15 i started to develop what was later diagnosed as fibromyalgia. And from 19 on i was on a ton of extremely potent painkillers. I am not off of them, but i switched to methadone and phased them out of my life as much as i could. At first i noticed a dip in my physical capabilities but that did not last long as host of other symptoms appeared that i couldn't explain and still don't understand.
The first was that i could no longer sleep at night, and i constantly feel "agitated" at night.
My senses such as my hearing and vision started sharpening.
I stopped being able to stay conscious or have the strongest urge to sleep during periods of the day with strong sunlight.
I started having the ability to walk longer, run faster, exercise more vigorously than i have been able since i was 17.
My sense of touch feels even more distant and dim than it did with fibromyalgia and strong painkillers combined.
I feel parched all the time and started wanting to do irrational things like bite my cat or my own fingers. Only just this week i placed that together with the research on sanguinous awakening.
It seems like at 36 that i am too old for this to he happening. But, without a doubt, it's happening. My physical appearance itself hasnt changed since my very early twenties and i always attributed it to the painkillers lol. I think those painkillers may have kept my a latent vampire far longer than they should've... But the question is, what now?
after lots of research im still alone with this, im scared, confused, im not part of any community I'm in san diego not exactly vampire home territory, i need advice and a second opinion or multiple second opinions of those already awakened. I haven't the first clue who or how even to ask about feeding methods.
Are there any awakened people out there that'd be so kindvas to help me take the first steps of an "awakened life"?
Any help would be greatly appreciated
Kate
The first was that i could no longer sleep at night, and i constantly feel "agitated" at night.
My senses such as my hearing and vision started sharpening.
I stopped being able to stay conscious or have the strongest urge to sleep during periods of the day with strong sunlight.
I started having the ability to walk longer, run faster, exercise more vigorously than i have been able since i was 17.
My sense of touch feels even more distant and dim than it did with fibromyalgia and strong painkillers combined.
I feel parched all the time and started wanting to do irrational things like bite my cat or my own fingers. Only just this week i placed that together with the research on sanguinous awakening.
It seems like at 36 that i am too old for this to he happening. But, without a doubt, it's happening. My physical appearance itself hasnt changed since my very early twenties and i always attributed it to the painkillers lol. I think those painkillers may have kept my a latent vampire far longer than they should've... But the question is, what now?
after lots of research im still alone with this, im scared, confused, im not part of any community I'm in san diego not exactly vampire home territory, i need advice and a second opinion or multiple second opinions of those already awakened. I haven't the first clue who or how even to ask about feeding methods.
Are there any awakened people out there that'd be so kindvas to help me take the first steps of an "awakened life"?
Any help would be greatly appreciated
Kate