Post by tnjvamp on Jan 28, 2011 22:01:13 GMT -5
I'm a Jewish vampire -- which isn't easy -- because, franky, being a Jewish vampire is a lot like being a Southern Baptist who's gay. By that, I mean that I didn't chose to be a vampire - and that if it's found out that I'm a vampire, I really can't expect the Jewish community to be accepting of that. Yes - Jewish people are rather intellectual, and (as a result) often open-minded. However, there are reasons why I think that such open-mindedness might wear thin when it comes to vampirism.
And then there's the internal conflict --- I was raised thinking of blood consumption as a very very bad thing -- but I realize now that it's something I need to do --- and somehow, I doubt that G-d would forbid me to do something and at the same time create me in a way that *requires* me to do it.
Of course --- I'm not a pure sanguin. I'm a hybrid --- but psi-feeding just isn't a way out of this dilemma in my case. For one thing --- the biblical prohibition against drinking blood specifies that it's carrying the spirit of life is the cause for the prohibition ---- so I seriously doubt I'd get any more acceptance if I consume this energy without the blood than I would if I consumed it through the blood. Second of all --- the psi-feeding that I did through all the years during which I refused to even admit to *myself* that I'm a vampire has caused untold drama in my life. So, in short, though I'ma hybrid, I can't use psi-feeding as a kosher alternative to blood feeding.
But back to my predicament --- I want some day to be able to get married, adopt children, and raise them Jewish. (It's a long and irrelevant-to-this-forum story why I can't just bear my own children.) What am I going to do when one of them comes to me one day and says: "Mommy, the Hebrew School teacher says Jews don't drink blood. Why do you do it all the time?" As a matter of fact, how will I be able to even enter a marriage in which adopting kids and raising them Jewish is possible? Something tells me that any guy who would be cool with that idea isn't going to be cool with marrying a woman who consumes blood.
What do I do?
And then there's the internal conflict --- I was raised thinking of blood consumption as a very very bad thing -- but I realize now that it's something I need to do --- and somehow, I doubt that G-d would forbid me to do something and at the same time create me in a way that *requires* me to do it.
Of course --- I'm not a pure sanguin. I'm a hybrid --- but psi-feeding just isn't a way out of this dilemma in my case. For one thing --- the biblical prohibition against drinking blood specifies that it's carrying the spirit of life is the cause for the prohibition ---- so I seriously doubt I'd get any more acceptance if I consume this energy without the blood than I would if I consumed it through the blood. Second of all --- the psi-feeding that I did through all the years during which I refused to even admit to *myself* that I'm a vampire has caused untold drama in my life. So, in short, though I'ma hybrid, I can't use psi-feeding as a kosher alternative to blood feeding.
But back to my predicament --- I want some day to be able to get married, adopt children, and raise them Jewish. (It's a long and irrelevant-to-this-forum story why I can't just bear my own children.) What am I going to do when one of them comes to me one day and says: "Mommy, the Hebrew School teacher says Jews don't drink blood. Why do you do it all the time?" As a matter of fact, how will I be able to even enter a marriage in which adopting kids and raising them Jewish is possible? Something tells me that any guy who would be cool with that idea isn't going to be cool with marrying a woman who consumes blood.
What do I do?