Post by lilyazucena on May 2, 2011 2:54:24 GMT -5
if I'm still going through an awakening. I strongly believe that I am a vampire but i think its possible that i could be something else too... I don't know what though. I'm a vampire but at the same time I know that I have cat ears, and tail and I also have wings. But not physically, I mean like spiritually I have those things.
I'm just so confused about myself because I've been told so many things and I want someone to please help clarify what I am and what I'm going through, how to help me, I want to live a normal as possible life.
I have been like this since I was a senior in high school (half way through the year so like a time period of 2006-2007) Thirsting for blood, craving for blood, even drinking blood. I can see the pulses when I'm really thirsty and I can even smell their blood even when they have no cuts. I just want to bite their necks, arms, hands, whatever I can sink my teeth into. No I don't have fangs lol that would be silly. But I feel so weird.
My body gets all hot whenever I thirst and I just get hotter and hotter and my scences get stronger yet weaker at the same time. the scent of blood getting stronger, difficulty of keeping myself under control. Sometimes I end up attacking a friend or two, partly knowing what I'm doing but at the same time I don't know what's going on with me.
Whenever I do drink blood, its weird. I get taller, and I start to grow (mostly my breast gets almost twice their size), and my voice deepens and I either hear the voice of the person whose blood I drank or I get real sleepy or both. It's weird because I don't know how my body is rapidly changing so much and I feel as though I'm somehow able to think the way the person does, even speak to the person but not speaking to the person but the blood that I drank (dunno how to explain this) and I even do some of the things that that person does like enjoying the same foods, have a twitch in my leg that only that person has or even the same humor, even their thoughts.
I can also drain people of their energy wheither conscience or subconsciencely. And I feel so energized and so alive whenever I do so. I don't know how I do it. I just think "I want that person's energy" and somehow focus and I get it. I can also place my hand over a person's soul box (I don't know the actual name for it but the soul is located nearby the Manubrium which is the bone above the Sternum and below the "Collar Bone") and I am able to drain the person of their emotions. The more I drain whether it be energy or the soul, I feel energized and my body grows. My body doesn't grow nearly as fast as drinking blood but I still have a body growth.
And I know for a fact that my body gets larger, because whenever I feed from people they notice a change in me. Some ask me why I look so different, others just keep to themselves thinking its their mind playing tricks on them.
I don't know if this is important, but I did mention earlier that I have cat ears, and tail and also wings. I started having these things around the same time that I started noticing changes within me. Very few people have even seen the invisible unexplained body parts but thought that they were real, asking me where did i buy those cute ears or where did i buy those wings. few hath even told me that i am an angel that god sent for them and they beg for me to help them in their time in need. thankfully if they really are noticeable, no one really says anything because it makes me feel uncomfortable when people can see these parts popping out.
I have heard of animal awakenings so maybe that's what these ears and tail are and I've heard about dragon awakenings but I'm not so sure if I'm a dragon on top of all of this. I mean come on, a blood thirsty cat-dragon being? This is all so weird and I don't' understand any of this. and I'm usually mocked whenever i say anything.
I'm sorry for writing so much. chances are no one is really gonna read all of this but if you do thank you so much for taking the time to read what I have to say. I would very much appreciate if you would also help me in any way possible. Thank you so much.
I'm just so confused about myself because I've been told so many things and I want someone to please help clarify what I am and what I'm going through, how to help me, I want to live a normal as possible life.
I have been like this since I was a senior in high school (half way through the year so like a time period of 2006-2007) Thirsting for blood, craving for blood, even drinking blood. I can see the pulses when I'm really thirsty and I can even smell their blood even when they have no cuts. I just want to bite their necks, arms, hands, whatever I can sink my teeth into. No I don't have fangs lol that would be silly. But I feel so weird.
My body gets all hot whenever I thirst and I just get hotter and hotter and my scences get stronger yet weaker at the same time. the scent of blood getting stronger, difficulty of keeping myself under control. Sometimes I end up attacking a friend or two, partly knowing what I'm doing but at the same time I don't know what's going on with me.
Whenever I do drink blood, its weird. I get taller, and I start to grow (mostly my breast gets almost twice their size), and my voice deepens and I either hear the voice of the person whose blood I drank or I get real sleepy or both. It's weird because I don't know how my body is rapidly changing so much and I feel as though I'm somehow able to think the way the person does, even speak to the person but not speaking to the person but the blood that I drank (dunno how to explain this) and I even do some of the things that that person does like enjoying the same foods, have a twitch in my leg that only that person has or even the same humor, even their thoughts.
I can also drain people of their energy wheither conscience or subconsciencely. And I feel so energized and so alive whenever I do so. I don't know how I do it. I just think "I want that person's energy" and somehow focus and I get it. I can also place my hand over a person's soul box (I don't know the actual name for it but the soul is located nearby the Manubrium which is the bone above the Sternum and below the "Collar Bone") and I am able to drain the person of their emotions. The more I drain whether it be energy or the soul, I feel energized and my body grows. My body doesn't grow nearly as fast as drinking blood but I still have a body growth.
And I know for a fact that my body gets larger, because whenever I feed from people they notice a change in me. Some ask me why I look so different, others just keep to themselves thinking its their mind playing tricks on them.
I don't know if this is important, but I did mention earlier that I have cat ears, and tail and also wings. I started having these things around the same time that I started noticing changes within me. Very few people have even seen the invisible unexplained body parts but thought that they were real, asking me where did i buy those cute ears or where did i buy those wings. few hath even told me that i am an angel that god sent for them and they beg for me to help them in their time in need. thankfully if they really are noticeable, no one really says anything because it makes me feel uncomfortable when people can see these parts popping out.
I have heard of animal awakenings so maybe that's what these ears and tail are and I've heard about dragon awakenings but I'm not so sure if I'm a dragon on top of all of this. I mean come on, a blood thirsty cat-dragon being? This is all so weird and I don't' understand any of this. and I'm usually mocked whenever i say anything.
I'm sorry for writing so much. chances are no one is really gonna read all of this but if you do thank you so much for taking the time to read what I have to say. I would very much appreciate if you would also help me in any way possible. Thank you so much.